H0PiNG for the B.3.S.T but expecting for the W.0.R.S.T.

It’s been a little dull for me today though I went out trying to cheer myself up and have girls talk with my girlfriends. Yet, I went from being cranky (according to baby boy while I’m on the phone and Tina too) to being completely emo about it at the end of the day till I’m supposed to meet Leo’s new girl at Jaya One for a drink that I finally called it off about an hour ago.



It’s really hard for me to spill it all out and the courage to want to actually go through it all over again is not within me now. However, I guess, a general pouring out thoughts will be better than bottling it all up inside.

By judging the past and the present, all I can see now is difference;

I see the different side on how things goes before and how things goes now;

I see the different side of you before and the different side of you now;

I see the different side of me before and the different side of me now;

I see how near we’re before and how far we’re now;

I see how faraway the stars may seem is how faraway we’re now at this moment. . .

As in now, I’m hoping for the best but expecting the worst is the only one thought I can possibly came up with. . .


Hopefully, I can find the best way out of it . . .

Till then, maybe – the completely emo side of me that fully filled up with disappointment will not fade awayyyy;;;;