~ people changed when things changed ~

What a sunny day~ B-) It is 2.44pm in the afternoon when the author of this blog sat down in the living room started blogging with her toshiba laptop and sipping her favorite jasmine green tea while listening to Ne-Yo song's: Mad. =) Half a day gone just like that. I was having my brunch with girlfriend Elaine before sending Mom to salon. As usual, two girlfriends sitting there and the chatterbox started! Basically, we're sharing each other recent dilemmas, gossipping, updating one another about others latest status etc etc.

Next,one after another, from casual to more emotional part, Elaine started flashing back to the past. All the way back to our high school days, to college and all the way back to the present. Then, I was thinking, " Wow! I actually made it through all these?? ". 2009 will be 3 months old in about 8 to 9 hours time. I can still remembered my Christmas, my New Year, my Chinese New Year, my Valentine moments so clearly as though it happened only yesterday. Elaine said a lot of us changed tremendously during this period of time. From her statement, I realize people changed when things changed. Even I, myself changed a lot since I'm done with high school. I changed my circle of friends, I left the old me, the naive me, the never dare to stand up for herself attitude, the girl that never dare to show the real her to the world and the girl that people used to call her names because she's a little different than others. Names like the black chicken, dark alien, and so forth.

Back then, no matter what, I still fake a smile in front of them and laughed with them as though I'm alright with their fucking racist joke. They think they should only mingle with their own race, their own kind, their own skin tone. Don't they know how suffering is it for people who are mixed and belong to both sides? I'm proud for two different races, two different religion and two different cultures..oh! To be precise, there are more than just two involving in my family (Though I'm not so sure about my family tree, but, I respect each and everyone of them). If anyone going to do that to the me now, I gonna shot right back at them. So what if I'm different? So what if I'm the ugly duckling? So what if I'm the black sheep and you're the Snow White? That doesn't mean the blood running through your body and mine is different! It is still red in colour! I used to pretend to be someone I'm not back in high school in order to fit into the crowd. I'm proud of myself of being able to survived all the way to my graduation day! Phew~

People always said high school life is the best! As for me, high school life taught me to be strong, to be proud of who i am inside out, to be able to stand on my ground, to outshine and to be the best of the best. My ranking for my high school life: Good. Scale from 1-10. I'll give 6. My ranking for college life: Awesome! I'll give 9 or maybe 10! L0L* Now, being the new me. I'm not the girl you used to think I am, I'm not the kinda girl who give up just like that, I swear like nobody's business when I'm mad, frustrated and I'm bitchy sometimes. I no longer give a shit about people that used to hurt me back then and people I know that my life will never gonna revolve around them. I do what I think is right.

Lately, I been through some obstacles too. I bet close friends knew what's going on and some of them seen changes in me again. All I can say, I promised to love myself more and take care of myself better. It is all about me, myself and i~ Before this, I used to put others before me. I hardly got time for myself. Now, I just wanna love myself. Love myself inside out. =) No matter what, I thank you guys and girls for your support, advise and being there for this girl, Christine. She's alright now. Though she don't tell her story from A to Z, please excuse her for her being a little ego, for trying to be strong and try hold on all by herself, to be independent and not letting others to worry. Anyway! XoXo. Love you people for loving me for me!

**P.S. People from my past, the Christine Chong you used to know back in high school or primary school no longer exist. In the present as in now, this girl is Christine We. Take it or leave it~