Second post of the day~
First thing first, thanks to Khen for your concern about what happened. I read your comment. Also to my bestie, the member of Vivacious clan, L.
OK! It is only the second week of the first month of the new year and I myself already turned my world and my life upside down. Bad things kept happening. One after another. Sigh...My year started off badly already. Anyway, this post is not about me telling the world how pathetic I am because I'm not that kinda girl that showed the weaker side of me and being an attention seeking bitch~ To be honest, I'm more an ego person. Someone with pride and ego and never wanna give up easily and show that I am weak. LOL*
I'm a little frustrated. OK - I'm kinda pissed off. So, I came to a conclusion that I don't want to bottled up my feelings anymore and I'm gonna let it all out~~ A note to L. I'm sorry that I didn't tell you what's wrong and what's going on. There is a reason why I didn't tell it out. First of all, I had enough of those negative feedbacks. Be it face expression or words..It is really killing me! Life is hard for me now. It is even harder for my special someone suffering alone and he's going through the phase all by himself. It is not something to be proud of and I gotta admit only fool will come up with those decision. Yupe! This is what a conscious mindset. This is what we gonna think if we're not tense and we're carefree. Why not put yourself into a difficult situation?
Lets say when you're facing some difficulties, everyone around you step on you, laugh at you, judge your action and etc etc. How will you feel? When all is said and done, why don't try to think up something to help the person in need rather than judging how foolish the person is..?? If you, yourself dare to judge people like that, why don't you judge yourself?
You should try to patch things up with them rather than being part of audiences and giving comments,
You should be there for those in need rather than indulge yourself with your own happiness,
You should share the grief rather than showing how great life is treating you now,
You should stop all those killing words if you're not helping at all.
Who are you to judge someone when you yourself are not helping and keep on talking?
Move away if you're not helping and stop talking.
Yet, thanks to those words, I'm still keeping myself strong.
Though there are times when I feel like giving up,
When the mind said is enough but the heart keeps telling me don't give up.
I almost let it slipped through my fingers because at first I'm thinking like how a rational person is thinking. Then, I realize, what if I'm the one going through the phase? What if everyone else including my family, my friends and my close one is not there for me? What if the world is against me? The only place I can think of and want to be will be the opposite of Heaven. Thus, I made up my mind that I'm going to fast until Chinese New Year and stay close to God for the courage and strength. Amen~
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