Lately, I had been thinking about this again and again..I knew everyone is worried about me. Friends spending time with me by having dinner with me, lepak-ing together, shopping and texting me just to checked on me. Mum even dragged me out for movie with my lil cousin. But, I just can't stop thinking about it. I'm trying really hard to distract myself by keeping myself busy and focus.
Still, the impact on it is way greater than anything else. I'm losing concentration even for my final exam!! Maybe to you, it is a small matter and there is no need to be so fucked up with it. Well, there is one thing I can say here, YOU DON'T KNOW ME YET....
I been through hell for 3 years. I been through a lot shits, pains, and tears that create the ME today! What happened in the past is actually repeating itself recently. For the very first time, I'm pouring out my thoughts about this whole thing. Sorry I lied to you, vivacious clan, angelina, elaine, and choon khen that I'm fine and doing good. Deep down, I'm not. So, the only way to release all my feelings is to let it all out~
++ to the someone (you-know-who)++
Sorry I neglected you,
Sorry I am not a good friend
Sorry if I ever do hurt you
Sorry for not listening to you
Sorry for keeping the anger inside me and not telling it out
Alright, it's not like I'm the only one should apologize. That someone should do the same thing too. Why? Because:
++ reasons why we're one step ahead of you++
you're demanding when you should be supporting
you're complaining when you should be contributing
you're comparing when you should be working out together to make a better one
you're self-centred when you should have offer your help to others
you're putting friends into certain categories when you should have treat all of them equal
you're inconsiderate when you should be considerate at times
you're stabbing on others when you should have show a little bit of caring
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and you're cruel when you published all those hurtful lines in your personal message...!!
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also, from that the day itself, I no longer respect you as a friend and to me now, YOU'RE ONE PATHETIC PERSON~
Phew!! There!! I let it all out and honestly I felt relieved!! I did shed my tears when I'm typing the apologize part and I sincerely mean it..If by any chance, you're reading this and you're the someone I'm talking about, Sorry but not because I did something to you now. This Sorry means that you being an attention seeking and pathetic person.
to my dearest sis,
ReplyDeleteyou know we all love you through thick and through thin. i'm proud of having you as my sister cz you're truly one of a kind. no doubt in life someone would screw us up but that makes you stronger. anytime you wanna talk, please pick up the phone, scroll through the phone book under 'A' and search for the name Angie Chanis and hit CALL. i'll be there for you 24/7 cz i know you'll be there for me too. love you with all my heart sister!
u still keep thinking bout it???
ReplyDeleteno nid to think it anymore...
Damn, how can such a girl be so f****** bitchy. I mean she should come up and say something directly if she's not satisfied with anyone rather than backstabbing or saying some cruel shit on the personal message.
ReplyDeleteYou know what sis, if you do need me, just give me a holla, my phone is on 24/7 as well. I'll always be there for you and you know it that I will.
Try not to think bout it anymore cuz I don't want you to suffer. No worries, we'll be meeting up soon right. So just chill out, relax and detach this pain.
dun be sad over someone who was nothing but just a LITTLE DOT in our life. she did not leave any footsteps behind in our HEARTS, therefore, her leaving IS NOTHING BUT she just helped us, me, u and pt got closer!! she lose loads, and gain nothing. we lose nothing, but gain loads! MUAHAHAHAHHAHA.and good job with the thingy u did in lecture hall ;) u noe what i mean!! =D
ReplyDeletelove ya loads =)