♥.chaos.in.the.house.♥

It’s been ages since the last I poured my thoughts here. Things changed. People moved on; from the university life, the party life, crazy dramatic friendship and love life. Everything is different. So am I.

As I am blogging this piece of post, I am sitting here in a coffee cafe waiting for my dear friend, A while he’s on his usual gym routine. It’s 9.28pm, Monday evening and it is my off day. Off day is crucial especially when you’re working for servicing industry.

Feeling a little under the weather while I’m listening to my iTunes playlist. Current jam: All of Me, John Legend. It’s like my sort of motivation song after my 2 years plus relationship ended. It’s almost 6 months now and I am still recovering from the heartache.

Not a single day passes by, that, I do not miss you and today, 16^th June 2014, marks your 24^th birthday. Ju, happy birthday and I wish nothing but the best for you in life. Regardless what happen now and what’s ahead us, remember; I will always love you.

Whisper (just a lil') L.0.U.D.E.R

There’s always [that] thought that stuck in the back of your mind.

That thought you were not quite ready to speak aloud.Due to uncertainty, due to rejection, due to fear and all sort of negative aura surrounded you.

For instance, that thought of yours almost triggers you to tell that special someone “i love you more than a friend” for the first time..it feels as though it was like a small whisper…..

How I wish I could whisper (just) a little LOUDER with (just) a little courage?

Pushed to the edge of the cliff

_{Have you ever feel suffocated with the over-flooded thoughts that filled up your mind and heart; to a point that you felt yourself being pushed to the edge of the cliff? Well, yours truly have been going through such dilemma for months…

Sometimes, I paused to ponder if all these are necessary or it is just some unnecessary stress trying to mind-fucked me. A good friend of mine told that I could just walk away and leave all behind. Yet, I kept running as fast as I could and as far as I can but…. my past still somewhat lingered around.}

_{All I wanted is a chance to bounce back and start fresh again.}